I'm a great entertainer...

...but (still) not a great Magician.

I feel i was not born a Magician.

I fell (i could be wrong of course!) that other fellow Magicians are more of 'natural Magis' than me.

I can and do provide great entertainment.

I will satisfy your fun needs, but i don't feel a Magician.

I mean a sorcerer, someone capable of incredible things.

Been entertaining this idea for a while (no pun intended). She must be quite amused by now (intended :). I love performing and i KNOW i was born to perform. I know it's my thing but i also feel that magic tricks are a mere excuse to express myself. That they are secondary. It could have been juggling or papier mache...i don't know.
For some reason it was Magic i chose to begin my quest in the performing arts world.
I guess my choice was due to the fact that i always loved watching magic.
When i was a kid i LOVED so much being fooled badly. I saw Magicians and it was something that i had to be part of.

You know those guys who see a girl and they just know that they have to have sex with her? I felt something like this with Magic (weird comparison?). I JUST had to be part of that stuff.

One more thing that i complain about myself is i would love to have a better understanding of the art. I obviously don't understand it the way my idols do.

Take Juan Tamariz for example. This guy knows magic inside out. He knows each and every path in the labrynth. Magic 'flows' from some people. It flows from their soul.

I don't think this is my case.